Updated 26/6/20

Before I start…
This will be rather long so I will apologise for that here at the beginning. However, I will not apologise for what I know to be true about myself or for my fascination in Jesus and his teachings and how I view them. I have no interest in debating Theology or my thoughts on the Gender Spectrum, I seek not to change minds, convert or condemn. I write this only because I believe these words will bring comfort to someone somewhere.

‘Love is not an Endorsement’
Don’t think so? Maybe think about it for more than 5 seconds……
If you believe love is an endorsement, I suggest you may believe in conditional love which is fine, I don’t. Also, I would think if you can only love what you endorse, you’ll probably find it hard to find peace in this world.

So ‘Love is not an Endorsement’ and that means I can love others no matter what they do. However, I don’t have to agree with what they do or even like it. As my wife was told by her mother on numerous occasions ‘I don’t like you, but I love you’. This vexed me for decades, but I do get it now. While it’s not the most life affirming thing to tell your offspring, it is truthful and once the easily offended ego gets over it, it makes perfect sense.

Authority vs The Rebel Jesus
Ask most people to name a historical or fictional rebel and you’ll get a lot of names: Gandhi, Che Guevara, Robin Hood and even Luke Skywalker may crop up. I doubt many people will say Jesus Christ. However, if you’re able to separate Jesus from all the establishments that now claim to represent him, he ticked all the boxes.
Definition of Rebel:
A person who refuses allegiance to, resists, or rises up against the government or ruler of his or her country. A person who resists any authority, control, or tradition.

Organised dogmatic religion never really embraced Jesus’s teaching
When Leaders and governments wish to quell a rebellion or silence a charismatic rebel, the first step is usually to discredit those involved. If they aren’t dissuaded next come the insults and warnings. Eventually people are locked away or publicly put to death as a warning to others. The trouble is killing people often makes the situation worse and can make the dead rebels (martyrs) even more powerful. Ultimately the most effective way to take the wind out of a rebellion while looking good is to appear to embrace their ideas. Maybe use their symbolism, quotes and messages, then overtime as people calm down, forget, die you can return to your way of seeing the world. Your ‘business as usual’. That is what I believe organised religion did with Jesus. ‘They’ took his message that gave common people a direct line to God while bypassing the hierarchical religious elite and set up a ‘new’ religion which appeared to have Jesus at the centre. However, over time ‘love thy neighbour’ and direct communication faded out whilst all the rules and regulations were slowly reintroduced. For it is laws and threats that are needed to keep most religions alive and in power.

The Facts: like then or not
Mankind has been fighting over Jesus since his crucifixion. More people than ever in the western world now believe he never really existed, and those that do will tell you ‘their’ Church is the one that truly represents His message. Lifelong believers and Atheists both have persuasive arguments, not to mention, libraries full of books and impressive experts that they can call upon to back up their claims. Such people love the illusion of reasonable debate. Yet at the end of the day, few ever change their standpoint and ultimately it comes down to an individual’s faith and what they feel to be ‘true’. It’s who do YOU trust or who makes the most sense, who brings you comfort in a difficult world. Sometimes it boils down to simple economics, throughout history even the most idealistic people shelved their beliefs in favour of a quiet life and the support of those that pay the bills.

Priests and Kings have traditionally battled for the souls of the people, until science and ‘facts’ became the new religion on the block with its’ own set of dogmatic teachings and wayward heretic scientists. Science had no need for souls, for minds passing test became the new standard of people’s worth. That is until now as science is beginning to eat itself. Many are realising the end game, where technology replaces the workforce and the brave new world is a place where billions of people become irrelevant.

My perception
As we enter a new decade it feels that we have entered another period of change. Apathy, confusion and fear mixed with a total lack of faith in all things has created space for the old-style religions to slowly rise from the ashes offering hope to the void that is our dying consumer culture. Yet I believe neither science or religion can truly fix those deemed ‘lost’ and ‘broken’, only a Jesus centred faith can.

Let us take moment…
You may agree with what I have said so far, or it may just all sound like crazy talk. My guess, in truth, is most will simply say ‘whatever’ then depending on what your peers believe you will reach your ‘own’ conclusion. Never mind let us push on.

And So, to my 1st simple point (finally)…
My love of the Rebel Jesus and his radical teaching of ‘love thy neighbour’
Yes, I believe in a man called Jesus! isn’t that weird 🙂 I also believe much of His life’s work and message has been lost. And whilst I see the bible points to Jesus, I believe that much of His teaching never made it into the final cut of the world’s best seller because they were too simple and too radical. After all it is hard not to deny that The Bible was created by an establishment class that cherry picked what fit with their earthly ideals at the time. Who knows what they left out. I believe for decades that we all have the essence of the universal creator within us. And if given, time we can discern between the dogma of ancient men and the messages from divine love. Alas, most religions and cults do not encourage individual thinking and only a very few prescribe listening for that small quiet which is our inner knowing.

The 2 commandments because who needs 10…
If for whatever reason you can’t discern between Jesus and manmade dogma, one should probably judge all of life’s situations through the two commandments Jesus gave .

Warning Bible Quote
Matthew 22: Verses 36-40
[36] Master, which is the great commandment in the law?
[37] Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.
[38] This is the first and great commandment.
[39] And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.
[40] On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets

Hey, everyone, you can cherry picked the bible to fit a theory
Yes indeed you can. People have been doing it for centuries. But how much ‘love’ has ever come from doing so? So, why this quote over those that could support burning of heretics or wars on unbelievers? Anything that supports actions of that kind doesn’t sound very Christ like nor is it very radical, in fact it’s just normal human small-minded greed and fear behaviour. Mankind does not need a Bible or God to justify war and hate, we can do that all by ourselves.

So did Jesus say ‘love thy Neighbour’
Honestly who can say … sure millions can put their theories forward, but no one can know 2,000 years after the fact. But just imagine a world where ‘love thy neighbour’ was our main life commandment. A compass to live our lives by. Almost all the Old Testament and much of the new would crumble into dust. Every word that has ever been preached that caused separation, alienation or condemned those we see as different would become a blasphemy.

Have faith in Jesus?
Do you believe he said, ‘love thy neighbour’? If yes, then you have all the you need to live in alignment with a God of love. If you don’t then you must look elsewhere but personally, I cannot see how those that can claim to be Christians with Jesus at the centrepiece of their belief cannot have this commandment as the central pillar to their church.

Eden has fallen (not another in the movie franchise) …
Eden fell just as God knew it would. It matters not if Eden was real or just a manmade allegory, once we ate from the metaphoric tree of knowledge and started valuing thinking over love, we have been surly dying ever since. Dying became something we thought was bad and from that all the fear and hate grew, shattering a divine universe of complete oneness into a perceived dualistic nightmare of heaven and hell.

I know many will say you’ve written all this to justify your freaky world view and make it look like God supports your ‘sinful’ ways. Nope! Actually, I don’t need to justify anything to anyone not even God. I don’t care what others think of me. See above, love of me is not an endorsement, but Jesus points to love no matter what I say or think I am. I have faith that all things including people were created for the love of it not because of a need. A God does not need validation from tiny beings revolving a mediocre sun in a vast universe. It’s the human ego that looks for validation and praise not Higher beings. Universal love trumps all dualistic illusion, because only once love is understood can all the pain of living subside.

Love doesn’t care about Gender and neither would a God
I know it sounds like hippy crap that would make Cartman of South Park ‘puke in his mouth’ but it is true. Gender doesn’t ultimately matter, how you dress, or act doesn’t matter. If you’re in a burning building do you care if the person who is coming to rescue you thinks he’s a power ranger or a care bear, a man or a woman, or even something in between? When you are lost at sea and the lifeboat risks life and limb to save you do you care what underwear they have on? And if someone is happier to identify as non-binary will you care if they become the doctor that saves your child’s life? Love doesn’t care if you’re right or left, up or down, man, woman or one of 10 trillion varieties, nor does love care what toilet you use or if you wear combat boots or stilettos. And like it or not neither would God, who happens to be a being beyond our comprehension that has no problem in seeing three as one (the holy trinity).

People can hate on YouTube, Twitter and even to your face but it’s just hate. It’s the small-minded, fear driven ego that believes its own point of view matters on a tiny planet that could go extinct if a rock hits it at any time. My beliefs are my beliefs , my gender is my gender, and I’ll take your love over your endorsement any day. Jesus said, ‘love thy neighbour’ and while it may lead to my own destruction and make no sense to my ego every day I will try to do better in that department because it seems all other paths have failed.


So how do I identify … (contains sexual references)
What are my pronouns…
Well as I said to a doctor who asked me the same thing, this stuff doesn’t matter to me and I know it should, but thanks for asking.
I don’t identify as anything. I know the fact that I am a feminising eunuch. I say ‘fact’ because that is what I am. I had my testicles removed due to lifelong pain and the fact they were covered in small tumours that were ticking time bomb according to the doctor. The removal of the testicles also helped my mental anguish over my male vs female battle which had been raging for years inside my head. People call it gender dysphoria, I don’t care if you believe it’s a ‘real thing or not’. My nuts have gone, and peace has come over me for the first time in 50+ years…so I’m a eunuch. Unlike the eunuchs of old, I have the option of hormone therapy. Due to the fact I had a full mental assessment before my operation and passed with flying colours, I get to take oestrogen. This feminizes my blood work a lot and my features but less than people think especially at my time of life. Yes, I have breasts, but many eunuchs historically got them anyway. I only been on oestrogen for 18 months so it’s early days but every day I become more androgynous

I guess to those who like to judge and stereotype eventually I will look like an old butch woman, even if inside I wish I looked like a beautiful sexy warrior woman lol. Personally, I know I will never be a ‘woman’, but my hormone levels and mental urges are no longer that of a man. I am happy with the ‘transfem’ tag as I don’t see myself as Genderfluid. I’m happy to be striving more for the feminine than the masculine, but I don’t look like the woman in the ‘Joy of Sex’ book or the man come to that. And contrary to popular belief, once your testosterone reaches my level of 0.7 sex is the last thing on your mind and even if it is, there is not much you can do about it 😊

Absorb the hate and project the love, that’s my challenge
For those who may want to use me has their political pawn, I no longer support the idea of left and right politics. Both have elements that can make a better world, yet neither will if they remain ghettoed in their current mindsets ..it’s not just religious dogma I reject, its political dogma as well.

Hardcore gender warriors will hate my unwillingness to get angry about people using my wrong pronoun and many fellow transgender people will hate my lack of commitment to a look or to go all the way medically.
LGBT+ haters will hate me because I am not ‘normal’
Atheist will hate me because I believe in a created universe without the facts they require.
Many religious people will hate me as they will see me as heretical
Most Christians will not agree with my view of the Bible as simply a road map to Jesus the teacher of universal love and oneness.

Since my first days in school back in the 1970’s I have always been picked on, ridiculed and never really fitted in.
For years I’ve seen them stand and stare, laugh, and scream. So to quote Jinx Monsoons (Drag Race) it’s ‘water of a ducks back’ oh I am sure that will also piss someone off because I quoted a drag queen…

That’s all folks…
You may be about to quote C3PO (Star Wars) … ‘This is madness’ , nope this is Planet Voss and Thanks for stopping by…

I’m not big on Pride in any aspect of life as it usually goes before a fall, but I am happy to be me and give thanks for my own God given uniqueness as should you.